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October 2015

Tropical Fruit juice smoothie 

The right regrets

 
I live with the right regrets.  There are some losses I am to forced to live with and ones that I’m peacefully willing to accept.  My journey has taken me through betrayal and back.  I wallowed in my own funk for a while, fought a good fight with anxiety and depression.  I have come out on the other side clearer, still healing and found my old kooky self hiding behind all that life drama, ❤️ and love that I found myself again.  After all of it, many would hate me if they could only read my mind.  Mainly because I’m my own health advocate and don’t believe in many modern approaches to recovery after inevitble setbacks everyone has in their lifetime.  I find the pharmacy world most revealing and alarming. I felt talk therapy was like throwing 20 dollar co pays at brick walls. (Talking to friends was free and way better).  Popping pills for the betrayal that led to my anxiety was the first solution from a psychiatrist who knew me less than 3 minutes. No, no, no, no!  I wasn’t okay with that so don’t do that. But they did.  The medical world makes money hand over fist masking one symptom with a pill to only create another symptom to push another pill. Kickbacks. It’s a win, win for docs and pill pushers.  Obvs, I wasn’t happy with this scenario but it was the “right plan of action” because “this was what normal people do after devestating life events.” Well, it might have been the right plan for most, but not this little cookie. I’m resilient. Yet I listened and the experience has left me with more evidence backing my own personal life choices of what constitutes my meaning of happiness. And it’s not a quick fix like swallowing a pill to tolerate my emotions. I knew healing from devestation takes real time and that you just have to go through those tough uncomfortable emotions.  You just have to.  Cope and heal. And I will not relinquish my thoughts. Anxiety, depression and popping pills for happiness and getting lost along the way is a safe mindless choice to stay in.  However, I won’t be labeled. It’s a cycle of victimhood for me and not a personal choice I would advocate for myself if I ever have to do it again. I have fought a good fight.  And have replaced these choices with meditation, healthy eating, good company, massage therapy, writing, mindfulness and exercise. These are my preferred methods for dealing with stress and emotional problems.  Right. Wrong. Indifferent. That’s how I roll. That’s how I operate. I try not to hold grudges. A knew thing for me these last few years.  This leads to bitter chips on my shoulder.  And I won’t have it.  I was more than motivated to move myself out of a terrible scenario. Mainly because I knew my kids were observing. They were listening, watching  and they are still learning. I wanted to teach them that the harsh realities of life will not paralyze me. With a strong mind I came out on the other side way better and  I led by example. My readiness to change my environment and my new surroundings provided me with powerful settings that helped my new story begin!  I figured, if I’m healthier and happier, my kids, the two most important people in my life, will most likely benefit. Only through witnessing the changes I have made and to have them watch me evolve can they see that anything is possible. And if that’s alright with them, then that’s alright with me.  

Onward to the recipe….   

 I was having breakfast with myself in Vancouver Canada a few weeks ago and gluttonly took over after I  had 3 glasses of the tastiest smoothie ever known to mankind. I broke down and asked what the ingredients were. It tasted fresh, sweet and the tart notes combined with the coconut water gave it a very different flavor jam.  Don’t bother buying frozen berries. Ingredients have to be fresh or it doesn’t taste the same. I tried the recipe with frozen berries and kids didn’t like it. Tried a week later with fresh fruit and the kids asked for it all weekend long! 
I got this dope vintage blender from the Salvation Army in mint condition. It works so much better than my bullet ever did and ninja. I couldn’t wait to bring it home and give it a whirl. I don’t have faith in these new mixing appliances. Old school is the way to go. If it ain’t broke then don’t try to fix it. 

 
Ingredients:

  • 1 can coconut water (I use Goya)
  • 2 bananas
  • 2 handfuls  of fresh strawberries
  • 2 cups fresh pineapple

Directions mix all and hit it with the liquify button. Done!!!!

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    Turmeric, coconut COFFEE!!

       Coffee! An integral part of my balance! 

     
        Coffee rituals say a lot about us. I do mine mostly alone but enjoy it very well with my closest crew and good conversation which often ends up gearing towards the meaning of life type discussions.  Flying multiple day trips strips away a lot of my balance. So when I have time off, all I want to do is be grounded. And part of my returning to balance is morning coffee! Usually alone, with a good book to start and basking in my thoughts…….

        Today’s deep thoughts…..It’s been one year.  Exactly 1 year today, we celebrated  my mother’s passing.  When I stop my busy life, in these still, quiet moments, I think of her most.  It dazes me. Mainly because we didn’t have the ideal relationship. But what is really? I never walked a mile or two in her shoes. But the older I get, the more aware I am of why she made the choices she did.  The only way she knew how. There was 5 of us.  As with any relationship with any mother. It went something like this. There are times when we hated her, yet we loved her. Times when we despised her, yet we were in awe of her.  There is nothing more magical than that of a mothers’ caress, tucking you in bed. The way she looks at you with her soft, gleaming eyes and her glowing face with love illuminating from her whole being. Nothing feels more safe as you radiate your love back to her. Those magical moments when mothers exube that unconditinal love. Nothing quite like it in the world!  That kind of energy moves mountains.  Time is borrowed. I wish it was an endless source. Especially now that I have my own children.  I can never  give enough of myself to them.  And there are times when I feel like I’m ripping one off.  I only have two and I can’t imagine how my parents felt with 5.  

      
       As I’m returning to balance, cup of coffee in hand and soaking in the quiet, stillness of the air, she’s in my morning thoughts.  I reflect on my  relationship with her. And that with my own children. I wonder how she felt when she made mistakes.  Parenting.  It’s full of them.  Mistakes and forgiveness, and you’re at center stage with no dry runs. 

        Anyhoot, snapping back, I’ve accidentally made my morning cup healthy. A light went off a while back and I started adding coconut oil, cayenne pepper, cinnamon and turmeric.  Another part of my ritual is drinking out of meaningful cups. Today, I chose my late Auntie Lynn’s old school Corelle. Mama and auntie Lynn had the same pattern.  Green and yellow. I feel very sophisticated drinking out of vintage. And privileged. What an honor it is to have them. The memories!  Plus, it gives me comfort knowing my ancestors are all around me in my daily rituals.  I listed some health properties of these spices. I add a dash of each, a tsp of coconut oil & with cream-n-sugar naturally. Careful with the cayenne. Even just a little karate chops me in the throat like whoa first thing in the morning! 

    Health benefits of coffee:

    • Improves energy and makes you smarter
    • Burns fat and improves physical performance
    • Lowers risk of type 2 diabetes
    • Protects from Alzheimer’s, dementia, and Parkinson’s 
    • Protects liver
    • Fights depression and makes you happier
    • Lowers risk of stroke and some cancers
    • Helps you live longer and is the biggest source of antiboxidants in the western diet

    Health benefits of Coconut oil:

    • Increases energy and burns more fat
    • Lauric acid in coconut kills off bacteria, fungus and viruses
    • Helps cholesterol levels
    • Boosts brain function in Alzheimer’s patients
    • Helps loose belly fat

    Health benefits of Turmeric:

    • Strong anti inflammatory paired with oils and black pepper 
    • Lowers risk of brain disease and improves brain function
    • Lowers risk of heart disease
    • Prevents and treats cancer
    • Helps arthritis patients
    • Studies show helps with depression
    • Helps delay aging 

    Health benefits of cayenne:

      • Promotes weight loss and boosts metabolism
      • Anti fungal
      • Treats cancer
      • Digestive aid
      • Relieves joint pain
      • Treats headaches 

      Benefits of cinnamon:

      • Anti inflammatory
      • High in antioxidants
      • Has powerful anti diabetic affect
      • Beneficial effects on neurodegenarative diseases like Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s 
      • Protective against cancer
      • Helps fight  fungal and bacterial infections
      • May help fight HIV

      As always thank you for visiting. Become a Follower if you’d like. I have a ton of recipes on this site you maybe interested in. I would love that! I’ll get back with you as soon as I can with your questions and comments. Happy eating and have a beautiful day!

        Lazy pinakbet


           
        It’s been 2 years & 7 months since I’ve touched this blog. I even forgot my user name and password. Whoopsie! Finally got in. And a smile came across my face. Pleasantly came upon  dozens of unapproved comments. A lot of re-pins on Pinterest.  My blog is now an established and trafficked site with as many as 100 hits a day. And my “Filipino mocha cake recipe” is one of the top searches on Google. Tadow!!! Not bad for not maintaining it forever and ever and ever! Not that I have an excuse why I shouldn’t have all along. But as my story goes, along with every other person on Gods green acre, I took a planned path in life that was meant to happen with a little meandering here and there but then ended up writing a whole new story. I dived into a world where I was forced to bear the unbearable. And this envoked in me the courage to develop the kind of coping mechanisms in a world with harsh realities. And that’s life. It goes on. I discovered during my sabbatical, feelings I never knew existed or was capable of.  To endure hardships and go through life as best as I can, unafraid. It’s something I always did before quite eloquently and now that life  has forced me to reinvent, I can’t help but be proud that resiliency is now one of my finer assets. 

        My first post is going to be a quick and easy recipe. Getting use to my new normal has been a game of not ever having enough time when I land from work and I just wanna order a damn pizza for dinner. But my kids look at me like I’m straight crazy when I do that. My sons response to fast food? He throws his body on the floor in a straightened stiff tantrum  screaming, “no pizza!” My daughter’s rebuttals against any kind of take out in her sophisticated 9 year old voice is, “Mommy? We want real food. Like pinakbet, adobo or sinigang. None of this fake stuff.” Oh great! They request all of the Filipino foods that are quite time consuming before my new normal began. You see, I use to have all the time in the world to cook extravagant being an at home mama most of the time. But now my new life has me back to work on the regular. Getting use to our new normal has taken time. But we almost have the hang of it. I’m never caught up to begin with these days and I’ve come across probably the fastest way of cooking a classic Filipino meal that requires a lot of time and chopping. My relatives would die if they knew how many steps I took out but this version still tastes sooooo good.

        Ingredients:

        •  1 package frozen Whole okra
        • 1 package frozen julienne or cut green beans
        • 1 tsp minced garlic
        • Dash pepper
        • 1 pound ground pork
        • 1 large cut tomato
        • 2 tsp pink bagoong 
        • 1 tsp onion powder
        • Cup of water  
        •  1 tbsp oil 
        1. Brown pork and add minced garlic  and onion powder  in oil   

        2. Add frozen packaged vegetables, tomatoes, pink bagoong dash of pepper and water. Bring to a boil then turn down to a simmer for 1 hour or until vegetables are done. 

          Uncover. Mix  

           And here you go! 

              

            
          Kiddos just about loose their minds over this stuff every single time!!!

             
           
          As always thank you for visiting. Become a Follower if you’d like.  I have a ton of recipes on this site you maybe interested in. I would love that! I’ll get back with you as soon as I can with your questions and comments.  Happy eating and have a beautiful day!

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